Sometimes..

For such a long time, I have been dealing with a negative energy. It all started when I was in my first year of high school. I got bullied. I was called names, I got told that I was ugly and that noone wanted me or loved me.

This negative energy started to follow me as I went into Adulthood. I become angry, I become upset. Sometimes, I didn’t want to leave the house. Sometimes, I didn’t want to face reality.. Sometimes, I didn’t even want to wake up. Finally after so long, I went to the doctors and I got diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety. I was given Anti-depressants and was told it will be okay.

That was a year ago…

A year later and I am finally getting back to where I was.

Today, I told myself that I am beautiful. I told myself that it is okay for people to call me names such as “Stalker” “Hater” “Whore” etc etc because these people that choose to judge me, do not know me. I told myself it’s okay to be hurt sometimes, because I will heal.

I make my mistakes, I mess up a hell of alot. Some people like to think that I want their lives & that’s okay too.

What I have learnt though, is that everybody is beautiful inside and out and noone should ever be ashamed of who they are and where they came from.

I am crazy. I am filled with love and hope. I like to give people too many chances, when really I don’t want them near me. I am way too forgiving.

But most of all from what I have learnt, sometimes the best reaction is to not react at all. Just remember, life is what you make it. Don’t let anybody stand in your way, especially those who have a thrill of making others miserable just because they are lonely.

Now, it’s time for me to start my new chapter in my life. With my partner and all of our surprises to come. I will never let myself fall again.💕