I’m loving it.

So, it has been a month since I moved to Newport and by god, I am loving it.

After living with my Alex’s dad for a few weeks, last week – we finally had enough money to put down our money for a property. A few days ago, we finally started unpacking and putting things away. We would’ve done it earlier, but we’ve both been SUPER busy with work and also the fact that I have to travel alot during my days off.

Today, I set up this –

Now, I know it doesn’t mean alot to many people, but to me – this means everything. These are my favourite pictures of my 3 amazing little boys. All from when they were babies, up to this moment in time.

Sometimes, Its been a struggle not to have them close by, but having these pictures and seeing them everyday makes me feel a whole lot better. I will be planning on making it alot better and adding more pictures in the near future.

After unpacking, we decided to go on a drive to Cardiff

It was such a beautiful day, the sun was out and shining bright & it was so hot.

We found our new favourite place in South Wales, which was the fountain you see in the photo. Late at night, the colour of the fountain changes and it really is so perfect.

I always thought leaving Aberystwyth was gonna be the hardest thing I have ever done, but really it was the easiest. I’ve got into my college course in Newport, I have my new job, I’ve also been offered to write with a group of girls weekly to earn money (which will help with our bills, etc etc) & I have finally got my own house.

Newport, you really have been so wonderful. Please keep on being great.

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It’s such a powerful thing..

I think Love can be a very dangerous game to play, but I also think that Love can be one of the best things that happen to you.

It’s kinda weird, but think about it like this – a person who you have known for however many years, could mean the exact same as to a person who you have only known for a short amount of time.

There are so many different types of Love – Your Family, who you love unconditionally. Your Friends who make you laugh and smile. Your Partner who loves you for you and is always there to support you.

I’ve been with my Partner for almost 2 years now and I would never have thought how much he would mean to me. He makes me want to reach for my milestones & everyday, he makes me want to be a better person. He makes me laugh and smile, and when he’s around, I feel complete.

To me – Love is beautiful. I honestly think that if you don’t have a bit of love in your life, you can become this negative energy wondering around. It’s better to be loved and love then not at all.

“The best love is the kind that awakens the soul; that makes us reach for more, that plants the fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. That’s what I hope to give you forever.” β€” The Notebook

Finally!

So today, one of my blogs got published. I was a guest blogger for “Life of Creed.”

I wrote about living with a loss, as my best friend of 10 years passed away so suddenly 4 years ago.

If you would like to have a read, here is the link. – http://lifeofcreed.com/1250-days-friend-passes-away/

In 2 days time, my blog gets published for Mental Health. After having so much passion for writing for such a long time, its finally all coming together.

Stay tuned everyone. πŸ’•

My everyday makeup look.

I wanted to do something different. As you all know, my blog is my personal place. I like to talk about love, moments that matter to me and just life in general. But today, I wanted to show you how I do my makeup, tell you what products I use and so on.

Sorry for the bad photo (I just got out of the shower and I am so tired) lets do this!

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Eyes.

First of, I normally start with my Eyebrows. The Eyebrows to me are normally quite challenging because as you may know, it can be pretty hard to get that arch and shape right. I then conceal the egdes with my ELF palette.

After that, I got straight in for my eyes, I always wet my brush so that it shows the pigment on my eyes and it’s easier to blend. I went in with the colour yellow as a base, and started using the gold on the base and crease of my eyes, then at the edge of my eyes, I blended in a dirty pink colour to create this effect.

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Face.

My next step is my face, before my eyes, I always moisturize. I then lead onto a base primer then proceed to layer on my foundation. I highlight just underneath my eyes and on the tip of my nose and use some bronzer for my cheeks. I never really use contour, and if I do, it’s only if I’m heading out but seeing as this is just an “Everyday Look” there is no need. ———————————————————

Lips.

To me, lips are quite easy. I normally stick to Nudes or Reds. On this day, I thought I would go in with a nude colour as it just went with the look I was going for, but I wanted some “oomph” so I added a tiny bit of red on the inner and sides of my lips.

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Final result.

So this is the Final Result. It took me around 40 minutes. I know some of you probably prefer the natural look, but I love using a bit of makeup because I like to create new looks.

I hope you enjoyed reading this and if there is anything else you would like me to try or write about, let me know in the comments.

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Products Used.

Pupa Milano – eyebrow pencil.

ELF concealer Pallette – Light.

Jeffree star – Beauty Killer Eyeshadow.

ELF Foundation – Light Ivory

Mac Studio Fix Compact powder.

Barry M – nude lipstick.

Cause Family is what matters.

Growing up, with a Family like mine was pretty amazing – we have amazing days out, we spent quality time together, but most of all, we are a tight knitted family.

I always dreamed of being a parent like how my Mother and Father are. My Father came into my Mothers life when she was pregnant with my Sister. He took my brother & sister on as his own children and helped raise them. I have always thought it was beautiful how a man can take on the responsibility of someone else’s child/children.

Sometimes, I don’t know where I would be without my Family. They’ve stuck by me through the times I cried myself to sleep at night because my past relationship was going down the hill. They were there leading me to the right path after I made my mistakes. They have always been there wether I need them or not.

My Family consists of a mum, a dad, 1 brother and 1 sister, my 3 little boys, 4 nieces & my partner.

So to my Family, I just wanna say thankyou, cause if it wasn’t for any of you I wouldn’t be as strong willed as I am today. You watched me grow, you’ve stuck by me through thick and thin. Ofcourse, we have our arguments, but what family doesn’t? What matters is, is that we are always there to make each other smile and laugh at the end of it.

I love you all. πŸ’—

Sometimes..

For such a long time, I have been dealing with a negative energy. It all started when I was in my first year of high school. I got bullied. I was called names, I got told that I was ugly and that noone wanted me or loved me.

This negative energy started to follow me as I went into Adulthood. I become angry, I become upset. Sometimes, I didn’t want to leave the house. Sometimes, I didn’t want to face reality.. Sometimes, I didn’t even want to wake up. Finally after so long, I went to the doctors and I got diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety. I was given Anti-depressants and was told it will be okay.

That was a year ago…

A year later and I am finally getting back to where I was.

Today, I told myself that I am beautiful. I told myself that it is okay for people to call me names such as “Stalker” “Hater” “Whore” etc etc because these people that choose to judge me, do not know me. I told myself it’s okay to be hurt sometimes, because I will heal.

I make my mistakes, I mess up a hell of alot. Some people like to think that I want their lives & that’s okay too.

What I have learnt though, is that everybody is beautiful inside and out and noone should ever be ashamed of who they are and where they came from.

I am crazy. I am filled with love and hope. I like to give people too many chances, when really I don’t want them near me. I am way too forgiving.

But most of all from what I have learnt, sometimes the best reaction is to not react at all. Just remember, life is what you make it. Don’t let anybody stand in your way, especially those who have a thrill of making others miserable just because they are lonely.

Now, it’s time for me to start my new chapter in my life. With my partner and all of our surprises to come. I will never let myself fall again.πŸ’•

Be yourself, feel comfortable in your own skin πŸ’•

So today, after ages of thinking about it and talking about it. I have come to the conclusion that I admire people that are always themselves, open to others around them and just being who they are and who they want to be. When I think of my family and friends, I realised that I surround myself with people who share this personality, and I love it.

Personally, from me. It has took a long time for me to feel comfortable in my own skin. I have my flaws, I make mistakes, I struggle with trusting people, but it’s okay because that’s who I am.

I am crazy, I like to have fun, but deep down, I am scared and fragile. I’m scared to hurt, I don’t want to feel the pain. But I’m not gonna lie, a few people I have met of WordPress have took time out of their day to help me open up; and that truly means the world to me. Sometimes, I forget how polite and amazing some people can be.

The point of this story is, I felt inspired. Seeing people on here, on Facebook, on WordPress who express themselves and seeing how confident they are, makes me want to try even more. So, don’t be afraid of who you are, because at the end of the day.. you are you. If people don’t like the way you are, that is their personal opinion and choice and sometimes, there is nothing you can do to change that. So be you, be crazy, be fun, be loving, inspire others, be confident. Be the true you, because you are amazing.